sugarpookie: its been so long,finally a time to blog! me,being so rebellious for the week causes misery to people whom i love,my applogies.today, from the bottom of my heart, i would like to wish someone special to me, a happy birthday. two months ago, was really planning how to celebrate and gifts that would be the most memorable for him. today,sitting here looking at those pictures supposingly will be edited in a video clip makes me felt upset because i know i could never do anything to make it up. i made a promise, i will be there whenever you need me.The end comes when we no longer talk with ourselves. It is the end of genuine thinking and the beginning of the final loneliness. The remarkable thing is that the cessation of the inner dialogue marks also the end of our concern with the world around us. It is as if we noted the world and think about it only when we have to report it to ourselves.well, rather end of it. so damnation.